Know the feeling of getting backstabbed by the last person who will ever do that to you and you trusted him so much and yet does it? well That pretty much sums up my Effing Life Now!


Life is going down now i have hardly money at all and theres a whole lot of family problems that i'm facing right now.. Yet school and all its stupid complicated shit! I don't mean studies. I have no social life at all






I want to put a bullet in my head so badly..

I've got no feelings of any emotion for about 3 weeks straight... Feeling like a walking body bag, no expression what so ever. i just can't stand it. The only way to cure this is if a miracle happened.

I sense that my time is almost up. Its like the gut feeling that death is comming my way.
Well if so hope when i die no one gets troubled i don't wish to have a funeral or anything.





I'm a usless piece of crap.

My exam results are great! 5 A's 2 B's and 2 Big F's( Mother tongue & and Math). Lets just say my hard work paid off but i'm worried that i might not get promoted to secondary 3 due to my poor math. I missed a whole lot of lessons due to CCA compitions and 2 weeks of M.Cs.

Hope i do well the next test i will work very very hard!!






Today, May 23rd. 2009.

I went to Adil's house to give him his USB cable as well as to say farewell and good journey to Hawaii. Stayed there from 3 till around 8.Nothing much is happening in my life,theres something missing.But there's a new way on how i look at life itself. I'm trying understand the meaning of life, although i'm still really young, theres still lots to learn about life.



Stop taking my advice for granted! Almost all of them are right!
Anything about general knowledge, ask me.

Today got into trouble in school, actually i didn't do a thing.... Some how during life skill lesson, Miss Mandy was talking about single parents and what they go through every day, so, i decided to share my experience on that topic itself. Suddenly Qin Sheng from across the room suddenly Taunt me with bad remarks about my parents and telling lies about me and everyone knew its obviously fake. I just get back at him with the "Screw You!" insult and then he don't look happy.

After Life Skills, i wanted to go out the front door to find jeremy, the minute i was at the door Qin Sheng slammed the door in my face, twice. I got angry and kicked the door open and reprimanded him. He then pinned me into the wall and then i shove him away. Miss Mandy later broke the so called "Fight". I then just walk back to my seat. He then attempted to a chair at me and failed, miserably. I laughing at him as he walked out of the class and broke 2 of the window panes. Mr Ramzy then talked to us and while waiting for Miss Mandy to bring us to the office, I intentionally disturb Qin Sheng and said "Can we settle this as young adults?" Then he insisted to settle it "one on one" and some how, not sure why, he cried. That basicly sums up my day in school.

16th March - 17th March
Went for sec two camp. It was really fun, had loads of activities but sadly couldn't participate due to my injury that time. The camp instructors were fun! They still remembered our Sec 3 friends who went there last year at Jalan Bethera Adventure Camp! Too bad had to leave the camp one day early because i had friendly match the next morning.

AHHHH!!! UNBEARABLE PAIN!!

Today really hard to wake up due to the medicine the doctor prescribed for me felt drowsy.
Almost late for school. My hand hurts as if theres no tomorrow for me. i should have wore the arm sling for support but it was so inconvinient i decided not to wear it. I cant even lift a piece of paper and not feel and pain... Should i change my CCA? Due to injuries and me not comfortable with my role on the team? Or should i explain everything to my coach face to face even though he would scold me? Life is really hard now.. Really hard...